[Brody]

In an effort to rekindle active discussion in this forum, I'm going to make it a point to start up some regular Talking Points.

First up, I'd like for our participants to discuss gender issues in roleplaying.

Specifically, I'd like to hear your thoughts on the plusses and pitfalls of cross-gender RP (you're one gender IRL but playing another gender in-game), and your thoughts on the plusses and pitfalls of being female IRL playing a female in-game (particularly in a gaming genre that's generally perceived to be male-dominated).

[Jazuela]

Well there's a little joke among players where I play - that you can always tell that a male is playing a female because her description always includes her breasts (which are usually large and firm), and because she is a typical "f-me PC." Men, it seems, have a tough time playing just any old ordinary female, and instead focus on "femininity" when they roleplay them, as if that is always their primary personality trait.

This isn't to say that "f-me PCs" aren't useful or valued - they certainly have their place in the RP world, especially when played realistically and consistent to the game world. It's just kinda funny (in an amusing way, not a bad way) to learn that F-me PC #676 is yet one more male's interpretation of a female.

I think the same is true for the opposite - that many women who try to play males ultimately go for the crotch-scratching roleplay. We might pick up on one aspect of the "male stereotype" and exploit it with our character's personality. Again, this isn't necessarily a bad thing, but it's just an interesting discovery when you realize that Crotch-scratcher #496 is yet another female's interpetation of a male.

I have also noticed that "believable and multi-dimensional" female PCs, being played more often by women, get more positive attention than the F-me PCs, played more often by men. Note I say more often and not exclusively, please.

What does all this mean? I dunno. It's just a funky little observation.

[Greenstorm]

This is a pretty comprehensive question.

I'm a female RL, and I play both males and females, so that's where I'm coming from.

I also play (and staff) on Chia and OS, so I'm in a very heavy-RP environment which is about 50% female by character numbers. I can also see which people have alts of both genders.

I've been RPing for about seven years now, three and a half of which were spent in heavy RPing environments with lots of social interaction. Previous to my heavy RP experience, I played a mix of males and females on MUCKs and such. There wasn't deep interaction between the characters on those places, and so it was very easy for me to play the males. As to whether I did a good job, I tend to think I avoided the major pitfalls.

I then took a break from male characters for about a year and a half on OS, and resumed playing them again on Chia. Currently one of my favourite characters on Chia is a male.

I find that it takes a lot more chutzpah to play a male. My boys are more flamboyant, they talk more to strangers, they do what they want more often than the girls. The take the initiative in things more. They are less subtle. This is true even outside the context of Chia's gender-segregated medieval world.

I don't set out to play these differences deliberately, they just boil out of the character. This is probably a sign of my gender socialisation iRL, and I can see how some of my actions RL support the beliefs that guys are expected to take initiative, etc.

The pitfalls of crossgendering from female to male that I've seen are two in particular: cheesiness and attention-centered characters.

As a female in a roleplaying environment, for many years I expected attention for my female characters simply because they were female, and I often got that. When a roleplayer of that type comes to OS or Chia (as I did) they make a female character in a relatively balanced world gender-wise, and less attention is forthcoming simply because you're female. If you rely on male initiative to approach you, you get less RP than you're used to and you miss out on RPing with half the MUSH.

Many people who've gone through this then make a male character, because with all these girls around then guys will probably get attention, right?

It doesn't work that way, though. So often someone with three or four female characters pops out with a male who, after a week or two, just languishes away until an idlepurge comes. I'm not sure exactly why it should work this way, I think it's because the character isn't much thought out beyond being attractive to women... there are no hooks for the player to get in character and enjoy the experience.

These characters are also pretty cheesy sometimes. Because they are designed to attract women, they often wander around murmuring things like, "you are so beautiful, milady," and "let me kiss your hand." It's kind of humorous to watch, and it really doesn't work. People tend to seek out well-developed characters to have relationships with, and cheesiness and overdone romanticism does not a developed char make.

I'm by no means saying all females who play males are like this. It's a stage I grew out of, I've seen other people in it, but it definitely happens.

As for playing females on Chia? Like I said, you need a character. You can't count on femaleness. And I notice that females *do* get approached more often than males, and that it does even seem to be split along player-gender lines, so guys playing guys approach girls playing girls.

I wonder if this is where the 'guys play slutty females' idea comes from? Because they tend to approach people more?

The women chars on Chia for the most part aren't standoffish to other women, and the men approach you for RP. Those are both good things. I think the pitfalls of playing inly women on Chia are that you sort of lose initiative after awhile, you tend to expect other people to initiate close friendships. Now, that subtle dynamic might add to the RP atmosphere, but it sucks in practice.

Hm. And that's about what I think about that. I do think everyone should try crossgendering, even if the attempt only lasts a week. It's an interesting experience.

[Greenstorm]

(And females tend to have more alts, this I think we have fewer female players but an about-even number of female chars. This may be due to make-a-girl-to-catch-the-guy syndrome, where someone likes another character and wants to RP with them, but can't think of a way to get romantically involved on their current char. So they make another char that's compatible).

[Cyre]

The opposite gender is potentially the most difficult concept to roleplay effectively simply because our experiences tend not to align themselves with any true depth of understanding. Males playing females will generally do either one of two things. First, they will simply play their character as though they were a male regardless. They make little to no effort to make their gender RP a prominent part of their character simply because it doesn't usually matter to them. They play as a female for benefits other than the RP, such as gaining access to gender-restricted guilds or, and this is the exception to their lack of RP, to gain more attention from the numerous testosterone-charged males willing and eager to play knight in shining armor.

Second, they will pick an extremely specific model of a female and emulate it to a T. Generally, this model is based more on their own fantasies than on any real world comparison. The character, as previously noted, usually has extensively described physical traits that border on the impossibly beautiful, and the character is usually portrayed as vulnerable and open to suggestion. This again mirrors the male player's fantasy of the perfect female, who takes little to no effort to seduce and is willing and ready to perform whatever function is desired. The character is generally not played out to such an extent where intense sexual experiences become part and parcel to the character's existence, excepting for those individuals previously noted who desire further benefits from their character's gender role than simply the rewarding RP.

That being said, it has been my experience that those males who succesfully play deep female characters end up having extremely good times and often gain a lot of respect in their communities. Whether this is  a reflection of some deeper attempt to unify the yin and yang of masculinity and femininity or if it is simply more noted because of the general rarity, I am hard pressed to say.

The more seldomly occuring case of females playing males usually follows much of the same logic. They extrapolate a character from a small set of generic personality traits that they have had experience with in the males they have known. Females are often able to roleplay a male easier than males are able to roleplay a female, and this is as easily attributed to the fact that there are more male hero archetypes available than female heroine archetypes in common myth and media as it is to the fact that, for fear of incriminating my own gender, females tend on the whole to recognize and emulate behavior more readily.


~Cyre

[Cyre]

The opposite gender is potentially the most difficult concept to roleplay effectively simply because our experiences tend not to align themselves with any true depth of understanding. Males playing females will generally do either one of two things. First, they will simply play their character as though they were a male regardless. They make little to no effort to make their gender RP a prominent part of their character simply because it doesn't usually matter to them. They play as a female for benefits other than the RP, such as gaining access to gender-restricted guilds or, and this is the exception to their lack of RP, to gain more attention from the numerous testosterone-charged males willing and eager to play knight in shining armor.

Second, they will pick an extremely specific model of a female and emulate it to a T. Generally, this model is based more on their own fantasies than on any real world comparison. The character, as previously noted, usually has extensively described physical traits that border on the impossibly beautiful, and the character is usually portrayed as vulnerable and open to suggestion. This again mirrors the male player's fantasy of the perfect female, who takes little to no effort to seduce and is willing and ready to perform whatever function is desired. The character is generally not played out to such an extent where intense sexual experiences become part and parcel to the character's existence, excepting for those individuals previously noted who desire further benefits from their character's gender role than simply the rewarding RP.

That being said, it has been my experience that those males who succesfully play deep female characters end up having extremely good times and often gain a lot of respect in their communities. Whether this is  a reflection of some deeper attempt to unify the yin and yang of masculinity and femininity or if it is simply more noted because of the general rarity, I am hard pressed to say.

The more seldomly occuring case of females playing males usually follows much of the same logic. They extrapolate a character from a small set of generic personality traits that they have had experience with in the males they have known. Females are often able to roleplay a male easier than males are able to roleplay a female, and this is as easily attributed to the fact that there are more male hero archetypes available than female heroine archetypes in common myth and media as it is to the fact that, for fear of incriminating my own gender, females tend on the whole to recognize and emulate behavior more readily.

Edit: Not necessarily more seldomly occuring, I suppose, just more seldom in so far as the cases I am aware of are concerned.


~Cyre

[Greenstorm]

That's a very interesting point about the breadth of male archetypes vs. female archetypes. I think you have something there.

[Mercan]

Having never played a female character before, my knowledge about the subject is pretty limited.  This is one of the reasons that I have avoided playing female characters, apart from small children as NPC's, up to this point.  I feel like I lack the knowledge to do a good job, or it.  While I think it could provide some very interesting opportunities, I don't want to end up playing a completely stereotyped character.

That being said, I think that there are just as many insane stereotypes forwarded by characters played by players of the same gender.  Particularly in cases where the player is a less experienced roleplayer or is younger.  These people tend to emphasize the fantasy in roleplaying, and as such play an extreme character both with the intention of getting lots of attention for their character and to be the the most 'something', whether it be most beautiful, or most intelligent, most charismatic, most powerful.  I think that experience dampens that a little bit and encourages players to make an effort to play more realistic characters both within their own gender and outside of it.

[Kallekins]

I've only once tried to play a male character (the opposite gender) and it didn't turn out so well. I felt that it was less believable even that my females that are polar opposites to my personality, and constantly wondered when people would realize that I wasn't really a guy. I met a female char who started trying to flirt with me via tells (that is ooc). This was on a mostly H&S mud, so that sort of thing was sadly commonplace. When I failed to really respond to her flirtation, she told somebody else that I was "SO WEIRD." He was a friend of mine and so promptly told me and we had a good laugh. But I never really felt in the skin of this male char, didn't get into playing him much, and have never again tried a male char.
I have noticed the overly-courtly male chars of female players, and f-me female chars of male players. Female players are just as guilty as males at making their characters unrealistically attractive and having stereotypical feminine attributes.
I think the tendency with both genders is to make our personal ideals; the character of the same sex is the person we wish we could be, and the opposite sex is who we wish for in a mate. This is rather unfortunate, since the most interesting characters are those who are not ideals, but as flawed as possible while remaining likeable.
Plusses of playing a female character... It is a lot easier to get help. This isn't due to the attention factor, but just because women can admit to weakness without embarrassment, while men like to always seem capable and in control. So when a newbie, you get a lot more help if you are cute, vulnerable, mildly flirtatious and female, without having to resort to going ooc to ask for help. Also we have so many more options for clothing.
Pitfalls...there are none! I used to be annoyed with too much attention, too many idiots hitting on me. I mean, there are more interesting things to roleplay than romance and relationships. But I've since changed muds and get treated more naturally now, so it's all good.

[Mikkel]

In over two and a half decades of roleplaying, I've done both ... played Characters of my gender, and played Characters of another gender ... and in some SF and hero cases, played characters of oddly variant genders.

I have been complemented on my opposite gender characters and their presentation.

And for me, at least, I believe is that, first and foremost, I look to create a PERSON as opposed to a gender or any other archtype (which is just a stereotype in a fancy, more palatable name. Though in terms of plot and storytelling, stereotypes/archtypes have important roles as both PC or NPC).

Whats more important is not "is it a boy or a girl" but "is the character one I and other folks can believe in as a real person. And not to diminish the importance of gender in personal development, the characteristic "keys" that make a roleplaying game feel real - depth of background, depth of personality, distinguishing traits - are, in the most part, arise from viewing the character as a whole as opposed to being a totem of a gender type.

Gender roles and presentation, in a gaming environment, also tend to be more influenced by the IC game culture and mores than our current views of 'what makes a man a man or a woman a woman. For an example, and on two ends of the spectrum, a High Science Fiction setting and a Traditional Mediaeval setting. The SF setting usually tends to be more egalitarian, diminishing the difference between male and female cultural standards and acceptable behaviors, where the roles taken by a player aren't determined by sex - its just as easy to find a chain smoking rough and tumble female starship pilot as a male pilot for example). Where as the Medieval Setting may have strict cultural roles for males and females, determining standrads of behavior, actions and manner for each sex (and we aren't even going to touch the complexity of gender roles in terms of social position). How a gendered character is played, created and presented in these two extremes results in very different mannerisms put forth by the player in order to create a believable role in each particular environment.

Create a person first ... and that person will tell you if they should be a male or female character. And its my experience that folks enjoy RP with a person more than a gender type.

Second, a while ago I stumbled upon an inherent contradiction in this whole discussion.

You see, for over 2/3rds of the time I've been roleplaying, its been at the task of gamemastering in one form or another.

As a Gamemaster, its not just a possibility, but a requirement to be able to present both male and female non-player characters in a believable and realistic-feeling manner.

And if one is expected to be be able to pull off cross-gender characters as a gamemaster ...

How much difference then is doing so as a player?

Mikkel

[Fifi]

Before coming to muds, I wrote fiction. So, when the question of playing a pc of another gender arose, I did not think it would produce any great conflict.

After all, I understood, that a character should be human (or what have you first) and everything else secondary. After all people are far more alike than different. So, male, female, no big deal. Right?

Oddly, the stumbling block for me was stage fright. I worried constantly that I'd be unmasked. The fear was very similar to fearing something under the bed. It didn't make a whole lot of sense. Had I been discovered, what would have happened? Would the rp police come to my door and take me away?

Since, I've gotten over it, and I don't think my male pc's are so different than female. But who knows - maybe the rp police just don't have my address.

[Greenstorm]

Is it considered 'bad' to roleplay the opposite gender where you are, Fifi? I mean, I don't make a secret of it where I am and no one cares. Are there any places where it's bad etiquette to play the other gender?

[Cyre]

Originally Posted by (Mikkel @ July 28 2004,16:21) As a Gamemaster, its not just a possibility, but a requirement to be able to present both male and female non-player characters in a believable and realistic-feeling manner. And if one is expected to be be able to pull off cross-gender characters as a gamemaster ... How much difference then is doing so as a player?

Regardless of the fact that it is an expected requirement as a GM to be able to properly represent male and female characters with equal propensity, it doesn't always work out this way. However, I would be remiss to question whether, in the groups that you act as a GM, be they pen and paper type games or LARPing or what have you, do you not have certain individuals (obviously yourself included) who the group finds "better suited" to act as a GM? Some people are simply better at presenting a range of roles than others, and it is generally these people who make the best GM. I would say, then, that it would be little more than a philosophic footstep to say that it is this same type of person who effectively plays characters of the opposite gender.

So, to answer your question, it isn't much of a difference at all. But the ability is still relegated to what I would expect is a minority within a minority, that being those who are both effective GM's and, within that group, those who enjoy playing characters of an opposite gender.


~Cyre

[Cyre]

Originally Posted by (Greenstorm @ July 28 2004,17:16) Is it considered 'bad' to roleplay the opposite gender where you are, Fifi?  I mean, I don't make a secret of it where I am and no one cares.  Are there any places where it's bad etiquette to play the other gender?

There is a certain social stigma prevelant in realms where sexual or emotional attractions run deep towards those who attempt to deceive others into thinking that their character is of a gender other than what they are as a player. This is far more applicable to males, for whom I would ascribe the mass media/Judeo-Christian influence of induced homophobia as an impetus, who tend to react violently on both an IC and OOC level upon discovering their character's female mate is actually controlled by a male player. I'm not aware of any incidents of the reverse scenario, females tending to be far more forgiving of such things, but the stigma exists on a wide enough scale that the previously voiced concerns for the individual's ability to "mask" their true gender are realized on a relatively significant spectrum.

[Rytorth]

I tend towards mainly female characters, because I am female; I know, generally, how a girl would react to certain situations.

I did make one male character, partly because I just wanted to see if I could pull it off. So far, I think I have; the main problem I have with him is that I have fairly little knowledge of how a guy would react to certain situations. I know how a girl would probably react to the same situation - but guys would react differently, I think. The problem is: differently, how?

For the most part, I try and work it out on a case-by-case basis and I go with how my character would react rather than how their gender would react, and that goes for both genders, not just my male character.

[Fifi]

Originally Posted by (Greenstorm @ July 28 2004,17:16) Is it considered 'bad' to roleplay the opposite gender where you are, Fifi?  I mean, I don't make a secret of it where I am and no one cares.  Are there any places where it's bad etiquette to play the other gender?

Nope, it's not considered bad at all. It's just a weird irrational performance anxiety thing.

[Mikkel]

Originally Posted by But the ability is still relegated to what I would expect is a minority within a minority, that being those who are both effective GM's and, within that group, those who enjoy playing characters of an opposite gender.

Or is it simply a matter of ...

And yes, I am tempting the fates here ...

... the shadow of a much more basic and obvious principle - that the ability to play a cross-gendered character is simply based on the ability of a particular person to roleplay or gamemaster? For the argument can be certainly made (and i think it already has) that a guy presenting a less than stellar guy-stereotype can be just as unnerving as a guy presenting a poor gal-stereotype.

And yes, one component of all this is understanding which roles one steps into well and which ones they don't.

Mikkel
Who, after over twenty five years of gaming STILL can't play a magic user without falling flat on his face ...

[Angie]

I think in the case of cross-gender roleplaying, a lot depends on the particular environment and the expectations of other players in that environment.

While I might be fairly comfortable with playing a male character, the minute others expect me to maintain that gender OOC, with my persona, I back out rather quickly. That is also why I never play the opposite gender in an environment I'm not familiar with.

And it goes both ways. As long as everything stays purely IC, I couldn't care less what gender the person behind a character is. If they however insist on extending the role to their persona (where it is, I find, much harder to 'play' convincingly), it becomes difficult for me to trust the person. Irrational? Maybe. I'm not saying there have been no exceptions. I just feel more comfortable when I know who I'm playing with.

What experience do others have with the character/persona distinction when it comes to cross-gendering? I'd be interested in hearing more opinions.

[Fionnlagh]

A personal observation, though it may or may be my own areas and not true of all games:

It seems like almost every IC lesbian couple I've known on a game turned out in RL to be one male and one female player. I'm not gonna extrapolate any theories from this. It's purely an observation.

[Cyre]

Originally Posted by (Mikkel @ July 28 2004,21:12) Or is it simply a matter of ... ... the shadow of a much more basic and obvious principle - that the ability to play a cross-gendered character is simply based on the ability of a particular person to roleplay or gamemaster?

Sure, I can certainly agree with that to a point. But I wouldn't go so far as to put faith in a direct causal relationship. I know plenty of spectacular roleplayers who can't play a character of the other gender well at all. The correlation between being a really stellar GM and being able to effectively roleplay a cross-gendered character is probably closer to one, as the skills exemplified in one are reinforced by those in the other. But some people just play niche roles well, rather than a wide range of roles. This doesn't make them a poor roleplayer, it just makes them limited. But defining what exactly a limited roleplayer is or is not would be near impossible, so I would trust more in the ideas I initially postulated.

[Kastagaar]

I played a female character in Star Wars Galaxies for a few months (I do in most graphical games, to be honest. I had this policy long before Francis did). I really quite enjoyed the experience -- I didn't lie, anyone who asked about my RL gender would get the correct answer, and I really don't think it mattered to most people's gameplay at all. Ok, so I might have got a little extra newbie equipment out of shaking her butt around, but oh well. If you have it, flaunt it, I guess

There was only one case where it ever became an issue, but that was from a guy who was self-admittedly, and I quote, "STOND", and we never met again. *shrug*.

The oddest thing is, she usually wore trousers and jacket in the game. I felt really weird about putting her in a dress.

[Jazuela]

...and then we have another twist in the tunnel:

a heterosexual male player, playing a swishy bisexual male.

or a heterosexual female player, playing a masculine-appearing, lesbian character. We're talking the big brawny burly warrior type woman, decked out in full plate armor, swinging a leg-sized blunt object in one hand and an axe in the other hand - who just so happens to like wearing silk scarves and has - no joke - dainty feet.

I played the second - it was a hoot. A friend of mine has played the first and pulled it off flawlessly.

I actually prefer playing the oddball - the one who doesn't fit the norm. The only male character I've played was an 18-year-old virgin in a game I no longer play. He loved his mom, got along with his family even though they were upset that he decided to do his armorcrafting business in the "wrong" alignment.. was "all boy" - loved to flirt with the women, enjoyed a good ale with a dwarven buddy of his, was respectful to his elders in public but would snicker about their silly politics in private...

He had a lot of depth, my guy. I didn't focus on masculinity OR femininity. I focused on his upbringing, the back-story that got him to where he ended up when he showed up for the first time in town. And flattery of all flatteries, I was told by a few people that they never had a clue that it was a female who played him. They thought he was 100% believable as a male and couldn't imagine any female being that good at getting into a "boy psyche." So I'll toot my own horn and give myself a w00t! on a job well done.

[Theomanic]

I have always played female characters, as I figure, there usually aren't enough of them anyway, especially not ones played correctly.  I really think if I tried to play a male, I would be able to without a problem, but I'm just more inclined to play females... and I find it easier to write their descriptions.  I'll probably give it a shot someday, if only so my opinion on the whole subject is more valid.

I have to say, honestly I was a little appalled at Greenstorm's post, though maybe I took it the wrong way, I can't say.  I certainly do not sit around and wait for people to approach me, because I'm a girl and it wouldn't be seemly or something to start up a conversation.  I don't understand why anyone would think that because they're female, they should act that way, unless they were playing a MUD set in a certain time period.  Personally, I usually play Fantasy RPGs and MUDs, and I don't usually see a reason to act as the quiet flower in those worlds.

As to males who play females, I have seen it done well many times.  But I would say the majority are certainly the discussed stereotype of a fantasy woman.  It's true, you can usually tell a female played by a male because of the description of their breasts.  Any sort of serious roleplayer doesn't tend to fall into that trap, but I've seen more than my share of "full, bouncy breasts" in descriptions.  And for some reason a lot of guys playing girls giggle.  A lot.

I 100% agree with Mikkel, the idea should start at your characters personality, and gender is really secondary.  You can have just about any sort of character as either gender.  I've had strong arrogant fighter types, and never felt the urge to make them male.  I think I just like playing females because I am one, but it seems to me really that that's simply a minor detail, like eye colour.

- Theomanic

[Fionnlagh]

Theomanic writes: "And for some reason a lot of guys playing girls giggle. A lot."

That's because a lot of the guys playing girls are high school or so age guys, and thus the age of girls they're around *do* giggle. A lot. On the other hand, most of the same guys have no particular idea what in a girl's mind *causes* her to giggle at something, so their timing may be on and off from one situation to the next. :> It's also worth noting that anime girls, at least those I've seen (channel-surfing usually; I'm not much an anime fan) giggle a lot. A very lot. And a lot of male RPers are anime fans. :>

On a different note, while it may be true that a lot of males play the big-chested females, I also have met plenty of females who desced their characters with big breasts. If only because they didn't feel they could compete for male attention otherwise.

[Fifi]

Originally Posted by (Fionnlagh @ Aug. 03 2004,14:39) On a different note, while it may be true that a lot of males play the big-chested females, I also have met plenty of females who desced their characters with big breasts. If only because they didn't feel they could compete for male attention otherwise.

I think the saddest thing about this comment is that it is true. And it makes me wonder why women would rather compete with their breasts than their accomplishments, or their minds, or by virtue of being a good person, or an evil person, or by being a person who makes things happen. Something to think about when you have children and contemplate how to raise your daughters.

[rayhala]

Personally I've never played a character of the opposite sex, for the simple reason that I wouldn't know how. I mean whenever I create a character I draw from my personal experiences and knowledge with that character's main characteristic. And having that in mind, I don't think a male would know how to play a female character accurately, because he doesn't know what it feels like to be a woman. A woman reacts differently to a situation than a man, and in one of his reactions to an IC situation he might be using his personal experiences, and that would be bad because his previous experiences are that of a man.

See what I'm trying to get at?

[Greenstorm]

I think the standard answer for this one is: that's why it's called roleplaying. We can't use our experiences directly if a dragon attacks us, or someone throws a fireball at us either, and yet we extrapolate: this makes me frightened like this thing in my life, that makes me angry like those other things.

I think it requires a bit more extrapolation that's a little less clear-cut to cross-gender, especially in very segregated IC societies, and often that's harder or a step people are unwilling to take. I don't think that it's valid to say that it's possible to roleplay a starving peasant with the plague, however, and not someone of the other gender.

[Devi_Sage]

I’ve been itching for a while to reply to this topic (finally registered).

I look at a character from a writer and roleplayer’s point of view (as I’m sure we all do – or the majority of us). Will they serve a purpose? Will they be capable of a full personality complete with faults, quirks and habits, and not just be a cookie-cutter or cardboard cutout? Do they possess the ability to evolve, branch out, and explore the breadth of all which they are – or have the potential to be? Most importantly: Will I enjoy playing this unique individual?

So, yes, I play both female (cross-gender) and male characters (same-gender). I don’t necessarily ‘think’ about gender when a sketch of what character I’m about to fashion pops into my mind. Quite frankly it has nothing to do with ‘what I’m comfortable with,’ as I’m comfortable at the thought of doing everything and anything. I have played (and still do play) lesbian/gays, bisexuals, straights, murderers, fascists, mages, zealots, heroes, average joes, homemakers, innocents, youths and the elderly. Whoever best fits the part and feels right in this artificial role is what matters for me. Gender is just a thing on the side.

I admit that I do have a strong admiration and enthrallment with strong female characters/roles, and I suppose my drive to create these three-dimensional individuals is fueled from that admiration. Perhaps that’s one reason for why my female characters gain as much popularity and recognition as they do. Players can tell that they’re people I love writing for. I enjoying the character I myself have created, infusing her with my driven creative force coupled with that respect I have for strong females in their own right.

They’re very different from me. Highly different. And that’s what I find incredibly rewarding – to be able to realistically play something so different, so “not me.” When talking to players/writers/friends about roleplaying, I always say “You get to play yourself every day, twelve months out of the year; why, then, roleplay someone that is a shadow or avatar of yourself? One of the major pleasures in roleplay and writing is to be someone other than you.” It’s like giving birth and watching your child grow, adapt, make mistakes, and go through the emotional gamut.    

This applies to my male characters as well. My male characters are far removed from myself, different on many fronts and their traits twisted to certain degrees. They’re quite different from me, and I value the rewards I benefit from playing them just as much. Of course. That goes without saying.

However, when I first started RPing in the MUSH vein and made my splash into OtherSpace I felt inexorably uptight and uncertain. I came from a freeform writing background, of mutual story creation, shared characters, short stories, PbEM games etc. So there was always this sense of knowing the writer (and his/her gender) as the writer as you went along. But it’s not quite the same in a MUSH setting. At least not to me, not in the beginning. I’ll try to explain.

Seventeen at the time, the first character I created for OtherSpace years (eons) ago was a female Mystic named Jemini. A spiritualist/counselor/psychologist. Once I got the hang of MUSHing I had great fun playing and expanding this young woman I pieced together. I met some great and intriguing people along the way, too. Now, I never lied or purposely set traps to deceive people about who I am. I am who I put out there. But it slowly became apparent as time went along that people were assuming that my gender – as a player – was the same as my character. Serve that up with a dose of negativity from hearing a few players (ones that I RPed with) making extremely condemning comments about cross-gender roleplaying, and I became cautious and nervous. It felt like I had committed an RP crime, or that I had broken some unspoken policy I knew nothing of. It was “wrong?” It was “bad?” Scandalous? Needless to say, I kept my player-to-player contact as scant as possible on a serious/personal level and my alts - both male and female - secret.

I didn’t want to ruin other peoples’ storylines and RP fun. I didn’t want to in some way “screw up” their characters. And /of course/ I didn’t want to ruin my own enjoyment, or “screw up” my own character, by suddenly having these gaping voids if certain players close to my character found that I was male. Because what I had heard, concluded, and feared was that other male players would react in aversely negative ways. I thought much how Crye posted about male players feeling threatened by this, that they’ll somehow be seen as ‘homosexual’ and ‘weak’ for roleplaying a /character/ with another male player’s /character/ – silly and ridiculous as it is. I stress the word character, as that’s who it is, not the player. Another thing that’s always tacked onto my main alts’ +fingers (info) are: “This character and its player are not the same entity.” We’re not. Obviously.

This also brings up the case of pronoun usage when inhibiting your character. I know it unlikely for everyone to use gender-neutral pronouns instead of gender-specific ones (like zir and sie). We just use the gender of the character we inhibit, even when OOC, to use in emotes/actions. And we base – by assumption – that the character’s gender is what the player’s gender is, or the “correct” pronoun to use when referring to him/her. I always wondered if that truly is the way to go about it, using the character object’s gender when doing emotes/actions/expressions OOCly. Sometimes IC and OOC details are blurred, too. (People using “me” and “I” when referring to their character’s what have you).  As such, I’ve always tried my best to shy away from using my character’s proper pronoun when it relates to /me/, the player. For example, “Laeria rolls her eyes,” becomes “Laeria eyerolls.” It makes me a wee bit uncomfortable and causes me to feel that I’m in some way perpetuating that false gender association.

So, yes, in my first year and a half of MUSHing cross-gendered characters I cherished the relaxation and entertainment and achievement I received from having made these unique (and popular) individuals, my “children.” However, at the same time my fears began to snowball and I felt suffocated, wary, guarded. Not too fun. It began to burn me out and made RP less than stellar. No surprise, then, that when a relationship went south and my health came a-calling, I dropped out with a LOA (leave of absence) for roughly ten-eleven months.

My return, around the twist of this new year, came with it a broader perspective and newfound personal growth. I am me. I am not my character. If you like me the player, then you like me for me. It’s not as if I logged on to forge relationships with the hormonal aim for TinySex (I don’t do TS; I have a SO) or to get ‘l337’ gear/items/gifts. Please. It’s nothing that shallow born out of insecurity/want of attention. It’s about finding an outlet to exercise my creativity, to enjoy in other peoples’ writing talents and letting them enjoy mine, to simply have fun and meet some great kindred spirits to forge friendships with along the way. There’s nothing “wrong” or “bad” in that. I realize that now, which is likely why I’m much more open about myself, my personal life and ongoing happenings via OOC channels.

Now, if people cannot accept that and still have trouble wrapping their brain around cross-gender RP, then that is their prerogative. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. You don’t have to RP with me; no one’s forcing you to. I don’t actively /hide/ my gender or who I am as an individual, a writer, a friend, but I’m surely not going to hop into a scene and right off the bat OOC “The player is male! RP with this cross-gendered character at your own peril! ~Insert Nefarious Laughter Here while tossing Evil Hair~” That’s... just not fathomable to me.

Anyway, if people were to have problems with it and became hung up about it, then they certainly are welcome to come bend my ear for a while. I just want people playing characters they want to play, and having fun while at it – myself included.

[minahd]

I have always played female characters with the exception of two. In the mud that I play, we have a few genderbenders. I saw a few scenarios above, and maybe I skimmed a bit too much, but I didn't quite see my scenario presented. I am a homosexual male playing a heterosexual female; my most frequent choice of character.

I don't think I understand women any better than a heterosexual male, and I don't necessarily think in any of the same regards as a woman. What I do think, however, is that what is important is that you treat your character as a person first and foremost. Constantly remembering the role you are playing and responding in ways in keeping with your character's personality, desires and distastes will find you great success. Really, it is no different from playing a person of the same gender as yourself.

Believability = staying true to your character.

Does your character grunt?
Does your character like nice things?
What does your character think of smelly people?
Does your character like men or women?
What is your character's stance on <insert topic>?
Does your character feel embarassed by the five inch freaky birthmark on his/her ass?

The point is, a person types "look maria" and sees that Maria is a female. From that point on, if you don't act completely out of character you'll be fine.

P.S.
My female characters are NEVER hot-gorgeous-yummy. They're regular people, and my main character has a rather flat chest.

[Greenstorm]

So that's why you dropped out for awhile there, Devi. Glad you came back

I wanted to respond to this:

Originally Posted by My female characters are NEVER hot-gorgeous-yummy. They're regular people, and my main character has a rather flat chest.

I know it was meant somewhat tongue-in-cheek, but it does raise a valid issue. I often think that people who play conventionally pretty women, or highly sexual women, are often belittled as roleplayers. Has anyone ever found themselves reacting to that situation by making less-pretty characters?