[cratylus]

I believe I have not been especially disrespectful to them. I
have treated them with the same regard as I would treat any
other experienced poster.

I'm not pretending I have to wear kid gloves with them, and
I'm not pretending they require special reverence. They are
people, just like you and me, who've volunteered for a
job they feel is important.

I salute them for that, and I support their desire to help
manage this site in a way that is constructive for everyone.

I also want this site to succeed and provide great value
to its visitors and participants.

I simply differ in opinion with the moderators on occasion.
I am not against moderation. I do, however, think it's been
done to excess to the point of vice, and I feel that saying
so is the right thing to do, and saying it publicly the
right way to do it.

It hasn't occurred to me til now that folks might think I'm
disrespecting the site, or the mods, or Lasher. To me
this is clearly not what I'm doing, but presumably it
looks that way to some people. In my opinion is not
disrespect. It is healthy, part of normal discourse, and
indeed part of what the society I grew up in thrives on.
It's silent acceptance of authority that I would consider
suspect, not vigorous questioning of it. Perhaps this
is what Scandum's semi-coherent posts are trying to get at.

I guess to some people it's looked like I was an anarchist,
to others it looked like I was attacking people, to
others it looked like I'm trying to subvert commercial
mudding, even.

I don't know why this all is. I mean what I say. I am saying
I disagree with the way some things were done, but
I support moderation when it is necessary. Evidently there
is room for discussion on the "necessary" part.

But I have been operating under the assumption that
there *is* room for discussion on such things.

If there is not, then that is my fatal error and it is the
thing I will pay for, I suppose.

But I'm trusting that despite being painted as some sort
of ill-justified agitator, folks can see my motivation for
insisting on airing my grievances is not a play for
attention, not an attempt to usurp power, and not a
vulgar display of petulance. I hope people see that I
wish to express my heartfelt dissent, and that I believe
it is ok to do that until I am no longer capable, because
I truly believe in what I'm saying.

If that registers as disrespect, I guess there's not much
I can do about that. All I can do is point to my history
as not-that-bad-a-guy and hope that folks make the
connection that maybe, just maybe, I actually mean what I
say, and I mean well by it.

-Crat
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