Well, I'm a follower. There's not an ounce of leadership in me. And that's been kind of a problem for RP, in the past.
So I avoided big things for a long time, because I'm a spaz and don't like scenes with more than 5 people in them. Well, that, and the whole "eek staff is teh scary" thing. ;>
At some point a couple months ago, I found that I'd reached my soap-opera-drama limit and wanted something big to do. My Friendly Neighborhood Staffer liked for players to come up with things. And I couldn't come up with any ideas for running things on my own... not that I'd have the guts to run anything anyway (it's been three years and I /still/ have a hard time joining RP already in progress... issues, much?).
So, talking to the Friendly Neighborhood Staffer in a non-staffy-context, I kinda tweaked.
Okay, I /completely/ tweaked.
Not a great idea. It tends to be really unproductive.
So anyway, someone else and I left for someplace else where we wouldn't have to lead too much.
'Course, then he got uber-busy working overtime, and I broke the computer at the house I'm house-sitting, so nothing's really happened since.
Nice.
I think I had a point... yeah. Point is, life can sorta suck for an uncreative follower type who can do what she's told and not much else. ;>
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